And I got my answer...

Update from my last blog...

So my last blog mentions that I am missing my dad

and what I need from him more than ever is his words saying to me

It's going to be OK, Tasha

I come  home that night ...and looked up the latest news from facebook

and what comes on the screen

a picture of my dad

from his obituary

and I closed my eyes and

heard his voice

his beautiful boisterous

voice that I SO miss...

like he was sitting beside me

"it's going to be OK...Tasha."

I cried

Then a few days later I realized

the day we get our daughter is July 9th

exactly 6 months since my dad passed away

The 9th is an ugly number

Or rather it was

God once again shows me grace and mercy

as He turnes the 9th from a

sad ugly hard terrible day

to a day of new life, new beginings, love and hope

I got this feeling like dad is somehow with me in  all of this

and telling me

"my girl...it's going to be OK."

Thank you God for helping me to hear Atek

just when I needed to hear him the most.

Thank you God for loving me and taking care of me

the way you know how I need to be taken care of.

Thank you God for never leaving me.

I give YOU all the glory and praise

AMEN